Well here we are again . Another month another blog . Felt i should write something although i'm not sure what to say or where to start.
Ok so the music has gone on i am now ignoring the world for a moment. When i say the world what i mean is i can't write this when there are people talking to me about other things that don't belong here in my mind. After all this blog is for my thoughts. So rambling aside and lets get this done.
I've been doing a whole lot of thinking and not a whole lot of doing. i have lost my edge. i checked under the bed, down the side of the sofa. The odd missing poster went up and was quickly blown down again. Sometimes life gets in the way of well everything . And i'm rambling again because i dont know where this is going and what it will achieve if anything.
I remember a year ago what i was like. I cared less about what i thought and just said what was on my mine. Now i seem to take everyone else's feelings into account and sit on my hands. I am conscious of the fact that i have let people down that matter while pandering to the ones that only want me around when i can do something for them. i should really learn shouldnt i well at my age blah blah blah and all that. i have lost myself maybe i just fell down a big hole. any personality i had is lost in a man trap and now i'm just horribly boring .
Mid life crisis anyone ?
maybe i should just have my nipples pierced and a big tattoo of bollocks in block capitals across my shoulder blades and maybe shave my head and have done with it.
Oh i could give up ok it sounds like i am , but i can't. after all i am the glue that keeps pants palace together . That's right just call me prit stick trust me i have been called worse. so on wards it is. i will valiantly look for my personality, my wit, my creativity amongst the washing and the ironing pile. Maybe it's hiding with the dust bunnies or at the bottom of the freezer with the frozen peas. If anyone finds it before i do it will probably tell you exactly what it thinks make you laugh and then swear a bit. if it does all of that it's mine and i would like it back once you've had your fun with it. Being prit stick isn't much fun without it .
